Transformations and Insights Nine Months Post-Saturn Return

By Aum by Zoë

There are seasons in life where change is subtle, like dew on morning grass.

And then there are seasons where change is loud — cracking bones, peeling skin, collapsing the very floor beneath your feet.

The past three years? That was the cracking.

And now — nine months after my Saturn Return — I can finally whisper:

I survived the storm. And I became someone I almost forgot I could be.

🌑 Saturn Return: The Unbecoming

Saturn is the teacher no one asks for but everyone needs.

It stripped me bare.

Took away what was not rooted in truth.

Burned through the illusions I had built around love, identity, money, worth.

But in the burning, something else began —

a return to the essence beneath the noise.

I didn’t become something new.

I "un-became" everything I was not.

I let go of needing to be understood.

I let go of rushing to fix what others never asked me to hold.

I let go of perfection. Of overgiving. Of dimming.

I began walking toward myself — raw, undefined, yet real.

🔀 Aum by Zoë: The Echo of Becoming

This journey mirrors the name I gave to my soul’s work: "Aum by Zoë".

Aum — the sound of the universe, the beginning and the end. The sacred syllable of "becoming".

Zoë — my name, which means "life" in Greek. A reminder that life itself is sacred, alive, breathing.

Together:

Creation through presence.

Transformation through truth.

Life through alignment.

This is what Saturn taught me:

To stop chasing.

To stop performing.

To live in the quiet pulse of my own truth.

Not as a brand.

As a being.

💔 I Grieved the Old Me

I grieved the parts of me that only existed to be loved.

I grieved the girl who didn’t know how to say no.

I grieved the version of me that couldn’t rest unless she was productive.

And then I gave her what she never received:

Safety. Stillness. Sovereignty.

🌬 Gemini Winds: The Breath After the Fire

Now, as Gemini season stirs the air, I feel myself breathing again — but differently.

Not to keep up.

Not to impress.

Just… to breathe.

Gemini, the messenger of duality, teaches me that I can be both:

Soft and strong

Still and expansive

Uncertain and wise

I am a mystery still unfolding — and I no longer need to explain it.

🔮 When in Doubt: Jupiter in Leo

Whenever the spiral gets too loud and I feel lost in my mind, I return to my Jupiter.

In Leo. In the 7th House.

He reminds me:

Your heart knows the way.

Your joy is your compass.

Love is your teacher.

Not just romantic love.

Love for life.

Love for the mystery.

Love for the woman you are becoming.

✨ Integration Practices — Body, Breath, Energy, Soul

These are the anchors that held me through the storm and now help me rise.

🧘‍♀️ Asana: Ardha Chandrasana (Half Moon Pose)

Open your heart to the unknown while staying grounded in your truth.This shape teaches us to hold opposites — just like Saturn and Gemini.One foot in the earth, one arm in the sky.Rooted and rising.

I trust the unknown. I balance between what was and what is becoming.

🌬 Pranayama: Sama Vritti (Box Breathing)

The most accessible reset.

Inhale – 4

Hold – 4

Exhale – 4

Hold – 4

Repeat for 3–5 minutes.

A breath to calm the winds, to soften the mental noise Gemini sometimes stirs.

📿 Yoga Sutra II.16: "Heyam duhkham anagatam"

"Future suffering can be avoided."

This sutra taught me a life-altering truth:

I do not have to repeat the pain of my past.

When I move with awareness when I choose from alignment —

I break the cycle.

I interrupt the karma.

I build a life I don’t need to escape from.

This became my Saturn mantra. A sacred contract:

I will not sacrifice my peace for belonging.

I will not repeat the wound just to feel familiar.

I will choose peace — even if it’s lonely at first.

✯ Reiki Symbol: Sei He Ki

The sacred symbol of emotional harmony.

It brings the conscious and unconscious into union —

Like Saturn meeting the self, like Gemini balancing the twins within.

I use Sei He Ki when I feel fragmented.

When I need to integrate the old with the new.

When my nervous system whispers: “Too much, too fast.”

🧘‍♀️ Guided Meditation: The Woman I Am Becoming

Find a quiet space.

Sit tall. Close your eyes. Breathe into your heart.

Inhale: I release who I was

Exhale: I welcome who I am becoming

Visualize yourself nine months ago.

Maybe she was tired. Confused. Holding on.

Smile at her. Thank her. Let her go.

Now see your current self — wiser, lighter, stronger.

Feel her in your body. In your spine. In your voice.

Whisper to yourself:

“I am no longer performing.

I am no longer rushing.

I am no longer afraid to be seen.”

Inhale: I trust myself. Exhale: I am home.

Stay here as long as you need.

Final Words

This isn’t a post about endings.

It’s about the sacred space in between —

where the old has fallen,

and the new is still taking shape.

It’s about honoring the version of you who cracked open —

and trusting the version that is slowly, beautifully, becoming whole.

So here I am.

Nine months after my Saturn Return.

No longer striving. No longer hiding.

Just breathing.

Living.

Being.

Welcome to Aum by Zoë.

This is life — real, raw, radiant.

And I’m so glad you're here.

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